Spurs 4 Liverpool 0

I've been trying to write something constructive but it's just not happening. I feel sick. Any defeat is bad. A 4-0 defeat is shockingly bad but the scoreline isn’t the thing that has really sickened me.

The reason I feel so sick is that my faith has been shaken. When Kenny took the reins off Hodgson, I saw him as a safer pair of hands who would keep us in the Premiership until the summer when I hoped for the reappointment of Rafa or else the appointment of a world class manager to rival Rafa. With Clarke as his No.2, Kenny did so well I became convinced he was the right man to remain at the helm. It wasn’t just romanticism; what they achieved in a short space of time really made me believe we had a world class managerial team in Kenny and Clarke.

Like most fans, I wanted to see us signing players like Aguerro and Mata during the summer but I was realistic enough to accept in our situation we needed to be targeting the players that can deliver Champions League football next season rather than players that can deliver the title this season. I backed the holy trinity of King Kenny, John Henry and Daniel Comolli in their summer dealings. The Aquilani saga baffled the hell out of me but that aside, I backed all of their purchases and outgoings despite reservations over the qualities of Adam and Henderson. I continued to defend Carroll against critics that I felt needed to give him long enough to prove himself.

I did this because I had faith in King Kenny and Steve Clarke and in the new owners and their vision for our club’s success.

Now I find myself asking: “How did King Kenny and Steve Clarke get things so wrong today?” There was nothing world class about their tactics today and their signings looked far from impressive. Suddenly, I find myself worrying that we’ve wasted a serious amount of money on Carroll and Henderson and that we’ve banished Aquilani in order to accommodate an average Scottish midfielder who stood out in highlights of Blackpool’s games but whose better performances for us will only ever be “hit and miss”.

A knee-jerk reaction? The concerns about Adam, Henderson, Carroll and general tactics have been bubbling under the surface all season.

All I know is 4-0 is our worst result in 8½ years (i.e. before Rafa). We also played better in this fixture last season under Roy fucking Hodgson. That’s how badly today went! Yes there were mitigating circumstances (if two red cards can be described as such) but we were shit with 11 men, slightly better with 10 and then it was game over when we went down to 9.

I’m seriously depressed. I desparately need to see a comfortable win against Brighton followed by a slick and stylish win over Wolves, a Merseyside derby win and then a home win against those bastard Mancs.

Kenny, Clarke, winter signings, summer signings and those of you who survived the summer cull... please restore my faith. Prove that today was nothing more than a day where everything went wrong. Above all else, let me be able to watch you play and enjoy the experience again because today was just horrible.